WaitingThe Bus
This morning was hard. For an event which I have had five whole years to prepare, it was like being hit by a truck. My baby went to all day kindergarten. He was on his game, he was mostly excited. When I tried to throw in some handy advice like, the Golden Rule and no spitting on the playground, I got, “MOM I KNOW!!!!” I tried so hard all morning not to lose it, my composure. I did realtively well. We were out waiting for the bus for about 40 or so minutes. Why? Because we had never done it before. We had little brother (IJK) and the dog with us while we waited. I had to put the CAT in the car, because he wouldn’t stay away from the road and he was in full attack mode this morning, jumping on the dog and hanging on for dear life. Anyway, I waited for the sound of the bus coming down the road. It seemed to take forever and then when I finally saw it… it was here, he was on it and gone in a nanosecond. I did well until he took the seat right behind the driver and gave me a huge grin. I lost it and I am now just thinking about it. The house is quiet. It is just the animals, IJR and myself. There is no screaming, no fighting, no giggling. So, IJR and I will spend the next couple of weeks getting used to “our time” together. IKR was 17months old when his baby brother came along and he and I had all that time to ourselves. IJR and I will get our time now. We will miss IKR while he is at school. Maybe he will miss us. Right now though, my eyes are watching the clock… we have four more hours until that school bus rolls through again. Next year both boys will be getting on that bus and I will have seven hours of my time back. For five years these two have been what I did for 24/7. What an adjustment. One door closes and another opens. It seems like I am taking baby steps though and these two are leaping. What a day.
