Why Bother

I am so upset right now that I could spit nails.  Make that fire.  Okay red hot nails.  I got a phone call from my sister this morning saying that my father couldn’t move either of his hands and that he was gray.  Gray skin, gray eyes, gray hair.  I told her to take him to the emergency room.  My father is 57.  That is young.  It keeps getting younger the older that I get.  He has been in pain for more week and he has refused to go to the doctors.  I will tell you the number one reason why.  $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!  He has health insurance.  Through his work.  He has a $1000.00 deductible that to him feels like it may as well be $10,000,000.00 (you get the idea, he and my mom don’t make a whole lot of money).  So finally this morning he broke down in tears in front of my sister and she waited patiently for the clinic to call back while he took a hot shower.  Guess what?  He doesn’t have to worry about the deductible, because the local clinic no longer takes his insurance.  My mother who is on his insurance goes to the clinic.  She is covered.  But since he hasn’t been to the doctors in forever, he would be a “new” patient and they won’t take his insurance.  What a crock of crap.  So now, he can either go to the emergency room which is going to cost him an arm and a leg anyway or fill out all this low income paperwork so that they can put him on a sliding scale, because they won’t accept his insurance.  Needless to say, he is in pain and if I have my way he will be going to the emergency room.  The problem therein lies that I live 4 hours away and have a child in school.  I can’t be of much help, so I am left here crying about the state of our country’s health care system.  I mean really something has got to give.  It is pretty sad when my husband and I are working to support two kids on one salary, me being a part-time workers and full time SAHM, but we would actually be better off if we divorced and I lived of the state.  I mean really what the hell.  What king of message is that sending?  I want desperately to leave this earth a better place for my children and my children’s children, but come on.  GIVE ME A BREAK.

We also have a program in my state to help people out with heating their homes in the winter.  Okay.  Great.  However, one woman who was receiving help to buy wood was not able to buy tree lengths of wood with her monies.  She could buy wood that was cut in to bite size pieces and split and get less wood for more money.  The state feels that since they cannot regulate how much wood you are getting with tree length vs.  cut and split, they are going with cut & split even though more than likely you will still get more wood with buying it in tree lengths if you get ripped off buy the seller.  How does this make sense? How how how?  I guess it is just an example of how one bad apple spoils the bunch.  I feel like banging my head against the wall until I pass out. 

But you know what I believe in this country and I believe in the people of this country.  We have got to stand up and do the right thing.  I am sorry to go on and on and admittedly I am feeling a little beat up.  I just don’t understand why we make it so hard for the little guy to get ahead. 

On a very positive note, I saw a great video of a young man named Dalton this morning at the following blog.  http://maineascd.blogs.com/maine_ascd_weblog/2008/09/do-you-have-a-dalton-in-your-school.html.  All I can say is WOW!!  Way to go Dalton.